In the past few days, I'm slowly desensitizing to sympathy for others. In other words, I'm becoming more and more sarcastic when I speak. I could be mean and hurtful,but when I talk, I'm edging the fine line of going overboard. I might actually hurt someone's feelings.
I've been getting very easily annoyed lately,though I quickly forget mistakes during the days. I try to think of others above myself, but when someone messes up, what do you do? Sacrifice and suffer? Or rebuke and be satisfied that I've said my peace..? It comes down to.." Ohmaigoodness, why can't you think ahead more, like duh?" Sigh.
I'm starting to be a really private person. I usually would tell the world everything about Liesl Tan till stalkers don't even have to stalk me kinda thing. But lately,I'd just rather not talk to anyone about certain things because I don't feel comfortable. I tell things to specific people in confidence.Sometimes they assume things,then spread rumours that they think is truth. It's not their fault that they assume they're right when they tell other people things. Perhaps I should state more that whatever I say, I say in confidence. I realized that when I'm uncertain about matters and I tell someone, I'll become even more uncertain because of the other person's hand in my mess.
All these things eventually,as I've so far convinced myself, is my fault. Why can't I be more sensitive like I used to, why can't I decide properly, why can't I keep my mouth shut[Once again, thank you Farhan for buying pink duct tape for my bday last year:)].. Is it really my fault?
Now I'm thinking, am I blogging about this because I'm seeking sympathy I don't deserve?For someone to tell me it's ok, it's perfectly normal?
Or am I over thinking everything..?:/
Inquisitive state I am in.
1 encouragements:
you know me... I don't sympathise much >=) but oddly enough, i will say that yes.. it's perfectly normal.
Us sanguine's think while we are talking to people, not before, so it's always easy for ppl to misunderstand, or misjudge us. I don't think there's any problem in becoming more private, proverbs 10:19 did say that 'when words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise'. but don't hold it in and bear the burden alone la yea ;)
God usually warns on us watching what we say, and how we should be sensitive to the needs of the people around us. I think God is moulding you la fatty, to learn the importance of watching what you say.
Proverbs 17:27
A man of knowledge uses words with restraint, and a man of understanding is even-tempered.
and you're becoming more sarcastic?! walau! you must be speaking to... 'me' too much. (dunno if you got that =p) being sensitive is something only God can give you la, so just ask =)
Also, i say rebuking is important. Though, rebuking and advising are 2 different things. Sometimes ppl screwing up are their own lessons to be learnt, and we can just be advisors, and hope for the best.
2 Tim 2:25-26
Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to the knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do their will.
aneeewayyyy i talk too much. proverbs says i better shut up before i sin. HAHAHAHA. *hugs* go eat some jelly laaa, frustration settled. LOL.
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