What to say,Lord...

Yawn..so tired studying. anywayz hello againm people!! i'm starting to think that my life is going into the drains, my tear drops falling like rain. why can't i shove away the pain?!?!? sorry bout that. it's just that this whole week been a bummer for me. i mean coz like i have no friends and no intension of studying. that good thing about me having no friends? so many.. i 1. i get to concentrate on my studies. 2. i get to finish all my homework in school. 3. i won't get hurt by them!
the bad stuff, more than the good stuff..1. i get super depressed.2.i feel ultra lonely 5 days in a week.3. my grades are going down coz i can't stop thinking about the problem.4. i cry almost everyday.5. i have no one to share anything with.6. he people who actually are nice to me are the people from other classes.6. i'll be STUCK IN THE STUPID CLASS FOR 3 YRS AND STILL NO FRIENDS!! problem no. 6 is th worst. yes seafield is horrible. no streaming for 3 yrs. i'm SOOOOO lucky. i try to make new friends but they always seem to fade away in a blink of time. i can't take he fact that i have no friends. is school really different than church? besides the happening and unhappening thing. i know i'm a nerd but why does THAT make me any more different in class or school??? i don't have any intention on studying because my new house is coming up and i'm realy pressured. i have to always go out and buy stuff when then i loose interest in my studies. great.yipee.i like moving into a nice house but so stressful!!! anywayz besides that, i'm really happy that God touched me and brought me to church. without church i'd probab;y be the most depressed girl in the world. LOL. but seriously, i'm so glad to have you guys!!! i'd would die without you guys. no friends. no"social" life if you get what i mean.hehe. and yes the truth is i am aishiteru-ing but half of you aledi know that so.. i might as well admit it. why did you say it out loud hannah...?P..hehe..new smiley. yea.. so that's just about it. and now i realized how unforunate non christian friendless depressed ppl out there. gosh. but the sad thing is many christians in my class are not constant church going ppl. some of them converted to buddhist already and some are slowly drifting away. a lot of them. So guyys just a reminder to pray for those who were in the tiny cute pink hearts and pray that they will be able to know God and come to camp. that's all and to hannah banana, christina how, james wu, and..erm..an't think of..oh yeah and liza...and..erm..i dunno who else but all thos going for PMR NEXT WEEK..GOOD LUCK AND DO ALL YOUR BEST! chaoz de maoz.

watashi aishiteru..

Pulau Perhentian...

Hey guys..guess what. I thought of this funky cool way of making my poems in to jamaican( is that how you spell it) style.. it's really cool. I instantly get back my mood to rhyme and shine.So just feel da rhythm bradas and sistas and you'll get the melody latah or soonah....

Day 1 at p.perhentian...

As we got there,
we just breathe in da air,
of the salty sea,
while others were getting their room keys,
Then we just bummed around,
making lots of sound,
and then we jumped into the water,
trust me i have never seen better,then it was time for diiner,
in a blink we were hangin with each other,
we played a lot of ginranmi,
it's either that or chor tai ti,
but we decided to use one deck,
to play just heart attack,
all we did was laugh and chuckle,
about air beds and 'bubbles'...(haha so funny!)

Day 2

We woke up around eight,
thank goodness we weren't late,
to makan lots of food,
and i must say it was really good,( you know why ..coz got maggi mee..mmm...)
then we went to snorkle,
wearing our masks and goggles,
but all we saw were lil' fish,
it was enough to make a yummy dish...
after that we were dead,
while i was having a slight headache,
they buried me under a pile of sand,
from legs to my hands,
Soon some of us jumped of the jetty,
and the first was rudi,
but judson took at least 30 minutes,
but lil by lil he got braver bit by bit,
in the end of that day, we had tons of fun,
just playing and getting burnt under the sun.

at night,
we did all our might,
to make a volcano,
and to burn marsmallows,
but eventually we turned to the stars,
they seem so near yet so far,
just to think and to open our minds,
and even maybe to find,
an answer...

Day 3...

We woke up dunno what time,
coz i'm quite lazy to rhyme,(???????)
we ate sausages and maggi,
i think it was really yummy,
but that whole day we were free,
that includes jumping off the jetty( like a gazzilion times)
kayaking,
diving,
snorkelling,
and fighting,
the current shanice and i were in,
we went in circles,
not getting any further,
but still i had the best time i ever had,
even when i felt slightly sad,( aha..you guys dunno!!!)
i think it was the best p.perhentian trip,
and becoz i got to skip,
schoool,
that's just so cool!!!

at night,
we got a sight,
of a turtle laying eggs,
which crammed our legs,
because of our kan cheong ness,
we got to see the turtle( thank goodness!!)
and little turtles set free into the sea,
but unfortunately,
they kept u-turning,
even when we had already left the scene,
oh well..

last day..

soon we went,
back to our homeowrk and assignments,
with a gloom,
looking at our books in our room,
we just sigh,
with a haih,
coz there was school,
no more salty pool,
and no more fun,
under the sun....

hey guys i forgot to mention on the 3rd day, uncle ching kwan and daniel kept the volcano going no matter what. yeap and some ofn us just lazed around on rocks( some people...) and on newspapers on the sand. we got to think about things and some of us end up glooming.( like me!!) and well..that's all..sleep wll and enjoy school y'all.( yea right..)