Chapter 493 - The Soh Chai

My first week of school,I obviously didn't know what to expect,what kind of people will I meet.

There I was walking around with my oversized pinafore where suddenly this guy and a whole posse of people were surrounding him. Being my judgmental self,I decided to label him as the Popular Guy,the Snob from 1 Hormat.

Form 2,there I was thinking "Man,I've been in the same Moral and Chinese class with this dude and we've never really spoken. Not like I want to,after all,he's now a prefect,snobbier than before."

When I first stepped into my form 3 classroom, I gazed around and saw "Oh no, the guy's in my class!!" Who knew that a few months later,we were as close as peanut butter and jelly along side Shaun and Li Jian.

Who knew?

Here's a guy who would make the class burst out in laughter,couldn't possibly make any teacher hate him,especially with his Soh Chai smile of his. Yes,it's still true that he's popular because of his sports title,such as a school athlete and our school star football player. Here's a guy who plays for our country now,who got the award for "Drama Mata Air" on world wide television on the show "Super Soccer Star". But he managed top 5. Not forgetting,he's popularity among the *coughladiescough* and maybe,just maybe some guys also la *coughgaycough*:P

Here's a guy who managed to get me a ticket for Campfire Night for RM5 at the very last minute,claiming he had to sleep with someone to get it[ he was joking la.] At LEO IU,he came down just to teman me up since I'm such a shy person[:P]eventhough he couldn't recognize me-.-

Here was a guy who was there to cheer me up when tears streamed down my face at school. He even lent me the chick[TA CHI!] which I gave to him,to ease my exam stress,claiming it to be a stress release ball. No matter how much he annoys me at school,I still count this guy one of my closest of the closest closest friends.

Here's a guy who would tell me to "Chill" over and over and over again and would give not too bad advice I might say. Here's a guy who can play practically any sport starting from the first time he learns it [frisbee!].Here's a guy who would call me at 12am at night just because he was bored and because everyone's already asleep.

Here's a guy who's the same height as me,or maybe a teensy bit taller.

This is a guy who was born on the 1st of July 1993.

I call him Jay.

Gan Jay Han.

Happy "sweet Cadbury"16th birthday man:)

Thanks for everything 19 month old friend. Don't forget me when you're famous:)

Chapter 492 -Brave confession of a teenage drama queen.

I'm so so so sorry to those who had to suffer my weirdness and annoyance and sarcasm today. I don't know why I felt like that,but I"m awfully sorry.

To explain the gist of things,I wrote down my thoughts on how I felt today in my Sejarah book,on a plastic that is meant to keep some booklet inside my Sejarah book. Know,like the CD plastic inside our textbooks? Yeah,that one. Somehow by penning down my thoughts,I finally realized [sorta] why I've been so off recently and why I'm so confused.

Don't scold me [mom and dad] for saying this or even like judge me [I don't know how you can] but like yeah. I'm sick of trying to hise it within the fineprints of my blogposts.

I finally realized that I have feelings towards someone I know 110% will not return the same feelings ever,EVER,not like I wish it to happen [seriously,I don't.] and am supressing my feelings so much that I don't even notice it. Which makes me think that I'm over him/her[:P] but I'm actually not because I've been lying to myself and this has been making me go crazy and emotions changing so fast like the crazy weather in Malaysia. So,I'll let the kebenaran fakta fade away slowly. God only knows how long it will. Feelings can't be helped,can they..?

Please for once let me just voice out what I've been thinking over the weeks/months in my blog because I'm too lazy to jot down in my journal. I'm 16,hormonal and deserve the rights to write this and have feelings towards people. So sue me.

By the way..

Simon Sim Song Wei!! We'll miss you too here in Malaysia. No more Adam Lambert screamos from you. Sadface. Take care,don't worry,ovember will come VERY VERY SOON!:) Time flies,my friend! Say hi to the sheep there for me:)

Chapter 491 - Heart melted like marshmallows

My post is as random as my title.

I am beyond sleepy.I was so sleepy till I'm not sleepy. I haven't bathed since I got home from school till now. My melatonin level just got cut off by the computer screen and I'm going to collapse during service tomorrow. Not to mention since my bro is speaking tomorrow,I might just doze off.But I'll try not to. His sermons usually are good.

For once,I went to school and didn't think of anything the day before. Micheal Jackson's death was shocking,and now that's he's gone,I really do feel sad that he is. You'll only miss something when you know its gone.

Oh yeah back to school. My mind was so preoccupied with everyone making real lame jokes or scaring the wits outta me with horror stories. And because of that,I didn't think of that one thing that makes me emo. I feel so happy today,though I don't show it. Thanks to the Brotherhood for keeping me content and smiling through out today. I loved it especially when we played BANG BANG BANG. Most of you reading my blog now should know the game:)

Jay Han: Bang bang bang,who dies?
Me: FIRST! Yvonne: Liesl dies...?
Jay Han: Why she die?
Yvonne: Because she said "first".
Jay and I: Get it get it get it???
Yvonne:Uhhh..nooo..
Jay and I: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~

Never felt so happy and lvie to be in school. Thanks Annei for not ffk-ing me:D

Ink Writing finale:
Frankie was happy being around by people she loved and returned love back to her. Her heart always glows with warmth:)

My crazy lovable churchies:)My crazy lovable family:)
My crazy loveable friends:)

Chapter 490 - What about now?

"Are you even trying to forget about it?"

I guess I am. But what runs through my mind is trying but at the same time doesn't want to try. Know,it may seem like nothing to most of you,maybe like a piece of cake,simple and easy to cut. But it isn't. Not for me at least.

Surprisingly,the people I didn't expect to be there for me,were there for me and the people I wanted to be there for me,couldn't be there for me due to unavoidable circumstances or maybe they just didn't want to be.

This whole thing's been going on for weeks and I just want to get over with it. Get my life back. But I can't or rather,it's really hard to try to "turn back time".

I know I have people who love me and care for me around me and I know I talk to my close friends everyday but I still feel lonely inside. Somehow,making myself think I'm happy just doesn't cut it.

LOL,I only wrote this post to wait for True Blood Season 2 to load! Wahahaha! *There I go again,sigh.*
Ink Writing finale:

Frankie finally knew that it was merely impossible to skate on the road without specific wheels.This is cake in comparison.

Chapter 489 - A scrub is a guy who think he's fly

Always there when I need my sister even when her boyf's around :P

My blog is starting to sound like Pee's blog. *screams*

"Don't let your emotions control you,control your emotions instead.."- Nah Yaj Nag

[If only it was easier done than said. ]

Thank God for friends who make you laugh and forget about the world.

Stay strong Nissh,it'll end soon.Unconditional love remember?:)
Magical Fireman,plenty of fishes in the sea,especially in college xD!!!

Ink Writing finale:
Yeap. I'm 100% positive you're more mature than me. Totally man,totally.
*chuckles*

Sister like sister.

Chapter 488 - When I'm care about the world

Gosh,it's one of those..

"OHMYGOSHIFEELLIKEJUSTJUMPINGOFFTHESCHOOLBUILDINGANDSCREAMING
ATBOTHYOURFACESBECAUSEEVERYDAYIMPRETENDINGEVEMOREBUTIDONTKNOW
WHATSWRONGWITHMEANDWHYDOIEVENCAREANDWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY
PLEASESOMEONEKILLMENOWLITERALLYANDIJUSTWANTTOGETOVERWITHITNOW
BECAUSEITSMAKINGMYLIFESOMISERABLEBUTWHYSITSOHARDSOMEBODYSAVEME
ANDMAKEMEFORGETEVERYTHINGBECAUSEIMDROWNINGINMYOWNMISERYAND
ANNOYINGOTHERSWITHITAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

..days.

Ink Writing finale:
Wonder when someone will say to you "Shallow Hal,what's a gal?"

Chapter 487 - Buy one,Free one,Gintell...

Mom complains that the girl who says "Daddy,I love you. Bought a Gintell for you"on the radio is a wannabe. LOL.

Campfire night,aiyah no need to say much la. It was really good! I don't know,but it's my first time actually going for one. I usually look forward to the end,DANCE FLOOR! Anyways,good job Scouts! Job well done:D

I have a secret(or maybe to some of you,not so secret la) :

I love to dance.

Now it's no longer a secret xD

No one's actually seen me do it because Cwalking,but thats nothing compared to what I do when I'm alone at home and the music is rushing my heartbeat and gettin me into an adrenalin rush xD Plus,I do it in front of the mirror,how it should be done xD

I owe it all to Jay Han for getting me the ticket! He claims she slept with someone just to get the ticket(PFFFFTTTTT).

Futsal was incredible today. I know sometimes I'm all emo because of futsal but today was a good day. Legs decided to work today. Joel was laughing halfway throughout matches without reason. Haha,that boy ah,very cheeky la xD Gabe also chapek adi,still rembat all the balls. LOL. You shouldn't have man.

Oh ya,today's father's day hor. Bet like I'm supposed to post something mushy,right? Nah. Instead,I'm gonna tell ya'll[coughbragcough] about how happening my dad is.

• He plays badminton EVERY WEEK without fail.
• He knows news faster than I do. Amazing.
• He pronounces certain words really funnily,which usually makes our days.
• My mom doesn't have an engagement ring. Instead,my dad just asked her dad for permisson and married my mom. LOL.
• My dad used to have like a catfish moustache,drapping from the face.
• My dad plays any sport well. Unfair![I think he has more stamina than me too]

I've said everythig I wanted to say in the card already,probably a lot more things I wanted to say but since mine was getting a bit too long,I did a summary la:) Thanks Dy,you da bezzzz:)

Ink Writing finale:
'My heart is broken into a million pieces and only he can mend it..'
Frankie read those words and remembered. She chuckled.